do you really want to know what's on my m i n d?
My Nemesis
I'm dying
Kill me
Relieve me
We've been down this road, many a thousand times
I'm not happy
Don't ask me what that means
Doing it all in a secret,
Being rejected- for what worth?
I'm dying
Let me
Not in peace but so i can have the peace
Angry faces staring back at me
Looking
Surrounding
Nothing, nothing, it's all nothing
Stop frightening me
You don't want to calm me.
Don't lie to yourself
I'm just a burden on your mind
Happy faces, happy minds
Don't kid yourself,
I'm no happy girl
"I'm not nice"
Don't cry for me
There are no tears for me
Promise me...
Just
I feel like
i'm that piece of dust in your eyes,
Rub me away
and clear the dirty stains.
Don't make me believe
that i'm something which i'm really not.
Don't help me to feel
anything which i really can't.
You won't trust me,
But that's just because
i make you sick
So don't you come
near me,
Close them eyes
so you won't see me
~
We're having fun,
And now i've woken up from my dream.
Uttering words which aren't fit to scream
And now the list of things i cannot do simply lengthens out
My mind's running through that dismal space,
Like the fox and the rabbit - a deathly race.
Let me lay next to you,
And if i died, I wish for you, all the best.
I don't know when, I won't understand how.
But when i die,
When my body rots to death
You'll know i'm gone,
With my spirit having left your thoughts.
And when i die, I wish you will still live on
Breathing, Feeding, Loving, instead of me
Believing, Trusting all that the world can be
What the world can ever mean,
To a little, non-existent, dead girl like me.
Knowing that how the world is seen today,
Is something completely different
To what the tragedies... Of the earth, Of mars, Of the brightest star and sun-
What they can bring.
How they will function,
Punishing you and me,
Ho
Sadness alone could never change me
But someday
Yeah maybe someday
Soon you won't have to find me
i will be there
its been a long time
memories get fonder
Sadness alone would never change me
Your every move excites me
Makes me come alive inside
This feeling empowers me
Making me feel lost, happy, mad, sad & glad
Taking over control
It crawls inside endlessly,
Soon you will have found me,
Etched deep to your memory
Seeping away the last sorrow
Will you ever forget?
Am i just illusion
Fixated to reality,
Not really alive
Alone inside
Wanting your love
Feeling your passion
Craving your desire
Sadness alone could neve
Maybe if we hang onto our dreams,
clutch them tightly and not let go,
they will stay with us forever.
Close your eyes,
listen to the natural beating,
syncopation of my heart
.. making what was weak, strong.
Darkness enveloping our bodies
we only make sense of what we touch,
feeling our way to understand
why we're really here.
With a tender kiss we slowly embrace
warmth spreading across inside
passionate yet gentle
not wanting to hurt you
but wanting to make how i feel known
Slowly yet knowingly, we know what we want
i don't feel afraid, i know you'll be there
waiting for me to show my leap of faith.
I am not scared, i ha
When i am lonely, I think of you
When i am sad, You're in my mind
When i wanna cry, Will you just let me?
When i am happy, You share my joy
Although it's never everlasting
We try our best
'What a happy day, Peace & Rest'.
~*~
Even if you leave me, i know it'll come back
Awkward feelings bottling up inside
(Why try and make it something its not?)
(Why hide the feelings & make out the lies?)
(DO YOU EVEN BELONG HERE?)
I'm fighting to be free, fighting to save myself.
My profound love & passion for hate
It's not YET broken but YET it's not whole.
Will it ever heal, the damage repaired, made better than before?
What once
The tropical warm air blew gently across her face, making her hair flick glamorously outwards. At the same time, the late afternoon wind was effective in exposing the soft, delicate features of Amanda Riley's youthful face. Her eyes glinted willingly, as though she desperately wanted to share a deep, dark secret contained in those deep blue eyes of hers; the secret like an ancient wooden treasure chest capsized and lost, floating aimlessly in the vast ocean…waiting to be discovered and bathed rich in its own spontaneity.
The boy, (of whom she had been gazing at for a while now) blinked uneasily back at her; completely unaware
Capturing 'that' sweet moment. by oCandyo, literature
Literature
Capturing 'that' sweet moment.
Let me rest in your graceful, outstretched arms
Cuddled up and comfortable
Snoozy and sound.
I like to watch you sleep,
Eyes shut tightly
Breathing softly next to me...
Lost in a completely different world of your own.
I wonder what you dream of when you fall asleep.
Perhaps they are the sweetest dreams imaginable;
The only tell tale signs being your cute little smile
And always happy face,
Not forgetting your distinctive & gorgeous aura!!!
I wonder what you daydream about;
The sun's beautiful rays shining playfully outside the window,
Almost teasing you to join in the fun of games
Or persuading you to think diirty thoughts...
WhyCan'tYouBeThereInTheSnow? by oCandyo, literature
Literature
WhyCan'tYouBeThereInTheSnow?
Why can't you be there in the snow
so what if i have a problem;
why won't you live with it like me?
Won't you support it and nurture it
like its some manky disease? It's infested and crusted
it's foul and tasteless...
Like a cheap red wine stain spilt carelessly onto that new beige woolly carpet.
Except, no-one knows how to get rid of it but you know they all care.
They may mock you, laugh about you or even sleep with your new husband. no-one regrets anything but you regret moving into the neighbourhood.
All the cheap thrills, mind playing games, you've certainly had enough. The cats all spit at you and even the trees whisper, talki
Nails Manicured Over Dinner by oCandyo, literature
Literature
Nails Manicured Over Dinner
Rich and fruity tastes
I love to explore.
Open up a fruitcake, Snuggle next to your honey
Over by the exquisitely lit real log fire.
Smell him and don't forget the sensation
Hold your breath and open your eyes;
You want the night to last.
Gazing endlessly at your face.
You're out and about,
Laughing, smiling, making jokes with your friends.
And for all those 15 seconds, i'm enthralled.
Totally overwhelmed and nothing else captures my attention.
Nothing is as deserving and nobody is by far as interesting or
worthy of my love and dedication, even my conversation.
I'm spellbound, and i know it. Its as if i have been tightly
wrapped and corded, double cuffed even, onto your presence.
Lacy ribbons and interwound threads of all colours; mainly pinks
and reds and lilacs...
The stuff you tie stuff with. That stuffs all around me. Laces, string,
wraps of fabrics, straps
Short Journey-recapping life by oCandyo, literature
Literature
Short Journey-recapping life
Fluffy white clouds drive past me.
I peer outside the window, dazzled and dazed
by the sunlit gleams that touch every stretch of land as far as
my eyes could see.
My mind gets a 'mind buzz'-
Simbas daddy showing Simba his future kingdom for the 1st time
comes to mind and jogs my memory again.
My childhood memories shift slowly back.
And for the light-hearted;
(-Where on earth is that 'Lady and the Tramp' video again??)
Tick-Tock
Clock struck one
Nursery rhymes all the same.
Tick-Tock
Clock hands hit two
A fairytale heading my way.
Tick-Tock
Third bell tolls
Laughter fills my ears.
Tick-Tock
Fourth conundrum falls
And so do all my fears.
Tick-Tock
''It's the fifth hour''
I hear all the nuns cry out.
Tick-Tock
Time's ticking away...
But where do we stop to gaze?
Wishful Days
A tired man, sits back and tries to sleep.
He knows is way and he knows what's his to keep.
He'll reach tomorrow. His wishful days.
He'll reach tomorrow..
Where they take it all away.
They sit and watch him fall, they watch him break.
Please take these chains from me.
I don't want to go but won't be something to keep.
A quiet man, he thinks but never speaks.
He tells the page that holds a memory.
He'll reach tomorrow. His wishful days.
He'll reach tomorrow..
Where they take it all away.
They sit and watch him fall, they watch him break.
Please take the chains from me.
I don't want to go but won't be something to k
Only In Dreams
Can you see, see inside?
Close your eyes and open wide.
Feel the cold, feel the rain,
Pushing you away.
I hope to crawl, I hope to climb,
But I feel the waves crash aside.
Only in hope you will find
Doubt.
Only in dreams, you will be found.
Only in dreams, I am let down.
Do you know, know my way?
Read the words another day.
In my hand, in my mind -
Look and you will find.
I hope to crawl, I hope to climb,
But I feel the waves crash aside.
Only in hope you will find
Doubt.
damn
life goes round in circles
im caught in the middle
my problems are my own
but it doesn't mean you haven't experienced it before...
<3
Happy Easter you guys
(apparently this is the time for sacrifices)
hey, this is actually dedicated to RAhul. He'll be chuffed (hopefully :aww:)
This is quoted from the website by Kazunori Yamauchi, President of Polyphony Digital (i.e. the Creator of the marvellous game.)
i totally understand that this is allegedly the best automobile
interactive game ever found on PS2.
Lastly, i reckon in answer to RAhul's < please insert coolest
job in the world > answer on his TAggEd journal entry....
He should consider being part of 'the team'.
GO!
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The most fun experience I've had playing Gran Turismo was when the production team held time attack competitions while developing GT1. We held time attacks every day
Being Tagged is so fun
1. what kind of first impression do you think people say when they first see you?
They don't really notice me
2. what's one thing you like to do alone?
The M word, or if not, run little errands for myself
3. what is your favourite line to say when you're drunk?
there isnt one?
4. how many drinks do u need before u get tipsy?
probably one LOL
5.